I apologize and I am greatly saddened to hear this news.
Life seems difficult, and miserable. At times it is (believe me, I've had my dark moments!), sometimes it is not. Some people go and blame God for everything (which I am NOT saying you are doing, my friend...), or they just give up and go in other directions such as suicide, etcetera, etcetera.
Life is going to be difficult, I learned that a long time back. I chose to live my life fruitfully, and no I do not mean doing whatever I like. I wake up with a smile on my face; sometimes I cry, I scream, and I want to beat things up.
Grief is one of the worst things to go through. Mentally, you think it's all my fault; what is life worth if people die all the time?
Some people would like to think I have "it all", just because I live in Southern California, literally "the land of dreams" (is it really?), but I've had a lot of hardships. I feel sometimes I lost my whole life now that my parents are divorcing and all that, which I won't go into deep details out of respect for my family. Even then I try my best to do good, to be happy, to look at life happily, and to make the most of whatever time I have here.
But know that I understand 100% how you feel.
And God understands, too (and I know that may be kind of hard to comprehend right now...).
Life is a mystery. Literally for thousands of years people have always wondered the same thing:
WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE??
I do not think we will understand COMPLETELY until the right time. Life is kind of like a messy spider web or something, or a puzzle. You can't get the full picture until you fit all the pieces together.
Well, friend, I hope all is well with you. God bless.
Come here often, though I have been busy lately...
Love,
NTG
This week, I lost a friend. She left her house the morning of August 20th, headed to work, and never returned home. Sitting at her desk at college, she had a brain aneurism. A beautiful life over in seconds...her family and friends left stunned.
What's life all about? At times, so fragile and fleeting. I'm left with so many questions in the wake of this week.
Have you ever wondered what heaven is going to be like...or if there even is a heaven?