Sometimes i feel that my faith and love for God just isnt good / strong enough.
I heard in church that to break free or to get a break through in life that you need a foundation with God. Other wise, if you don't have that foundation, it won't happen / last.
And as some of you know, i've had a bad past life, and am in need of a breakthrough.
I absolutely Love worshipping, i just cant do it enough!
When im driving, practicing in the worship team, when im in bed at night, during the day whenever i can i worship. (btw, i work the sound desk in the worship team) And at church i dont find worship is long enough, i just love it and cant get enough, lol. And even when my throat starts to get sore, or dry i still carry on cos i love it.
One thing that im not so strong on is spending time in The Word.
Im not a very good reader, so i dont read my bible very often at all, except when in church, maybe then ill read a chapter once a month or so but thats it.
Because of my reading difficulties, i downloaded the Bible in MP3 format so i can listen to it instead, but then i haven't even bothered listening to it because instead of listening to someone read the bible for me, i prefer to worship.
I do pray, but i don't know how to do it properly.
Although some personal freinds of mine from the church have told me i have to attend the prayer meeting next Wednesday at church
Thank you & God bless.