I don’t know if I can handle taking a life. I have an alarm on my house, a dog, pepper spray, baseball bats, and knives for protection. I have had a gun pulled on me as a passenger in a road rage incident and have physically subdued an armed drunk individual to the point of “putting him to sleep” twice before the cops came and took him away.
I know I am capable of defending myself in the vast majority of situations but I also know I can be at a tremendous disadvantage by not having a firearm and that leaves me with vulnerabilities.
But I also know myself well enough to know I would be devastated to take a life even if I thought it was my only option at the time. I would reflect on it, possibly for the rest of my life, and think of all the “what ifs” that I could have possibly done differently to avoid ending someone’s life.
On the other hand, if something were to happen to a loved one and I failed to act and/or my actions were not enough to prevent it because I didn’t have the right tool (firearm), I would also be devastated for the rest of my life.
I also know possessing a firearm can lead to a false sense of security, potential accidents from stray bullets or mistaken identity, and I have two young children in the house.
I really do see the pros and cons of both sides and am genuinely conflicted. Others have quoted scripture about the two swords but I’ve heard interpretations of that verse that suggest it was not about defense and only about fulfilling prophecy. I’m afraid interpreting to turn the other cheek as only about minor insults and infractions may be too minimal in scope and a possible misinterpretation to justify a position.
In short, I’m still