You can try telling God what to do, let us know how that works out. Ask the Israelites how that worked out for them, or you could read Exodus and Numbers and find out for yourself. You are selfish, to the point you don't even see it. I know you're young, immature, and selfish, but your actions will keep you there. You're gonna be in a state if arrested development and your walk with God will suffer. Every post you write turns out to be a demand from God, and shows your unwillingness to trust Him. I know your an infant, but you don't even show the desire to eat solid food. I'm not gonna argue with you, your words paint a picture of you, it's one of you and Severus, not of you and Jesus.