Must I take ''Did you know that a man who raped a virgin had to marry his victim? Everything is in the OT / on the other hand the violence contained in it repels me. Primarily if "God" ordered the violence'' as an attack on the OT / God (John 1:1) and your final consensus on the matter? You judge God as bad because He ordered violence?
Have you not read Jonah 4:2? He prayed to the Lord, “Isn’t this what I said, Lord, when I was still at home? That is what I tried to forestall by fleeing to Tarshish. I knew that you are a gracious and compassionate God, slow to anger and abounding in love, a God who relents from sending calamity.
I think this tends to be the crux of the problem. If one can find a Biblical passage that seems to illustrate God as violent and tyrannical, someone else can find a verse that explains that God is not violent and tyrannical. But then the question brought up after that is usually A) "Well then the Bible is false", B) "Your verse is wrong", or C) "You took your verse out of context." If A is true, then that means the passage provided that "explains" God being violent and tyrannical must also be discarded as false. If B is true, then any verse has the ability to be wrong and the scriptures become relative. And if C is true, evidence must be provided, and pointing to another verse would be arguing in a circle.
This is why it is important to learn about what God is and what God is not. If God is "ipsum esse subsistens" and not merely a supreme being, then either He is all good and loving or all evil and hating. If He is the latter, then love wouldn't be a thing, but a lack of something else. This might seem a bit simplistic and maybe even a bit of a stretch, but if love is only a lack of something, then it seems bizarre that it is often a goal--whether it be morally, romantically, or even physically. And if God is "ipsum esse subsistens," then how does man counter God with a removal of a thing and that lack of something being more powerful? (Forgive me if that was poorly worded).
I'm not arguing against you, King J -- I'm adding onto your question.