A Test of Faith
Ok it is late as usual here in this slumbery town of NY, but I need to share a quick message..
As many of you know, I have been seeking the Lord and wanting to become a Mature Christian. Many things have happened in my life in the last couple of months.
Through my obedience and acknowledging him in many ways, he has been blessing me with many things in my life, including a new job that will take me 2 1/2 hours from my daughter, will take me from my current friends, church and many more things. I had given notice at my job on March 12th.
Today after a meeting at the hospital, the CEO wanted to talk to me. He sat down to tell me of the value I bring to the facility and how they do not want to lose me (mind you, this comes after offsite meeting in regards to a software program the hospital spent a lot of money on and needs to be set up.. and who is a major part of that.. me.. they have had system for a year now and not utiizing it to full capacity.. after the meeting at another site yesterday, it came to fruition that the key player that they did not bring in on the front end.. and who can complete everything is leaving now in 13 days.. me.. He continued to tell me of my value to the organization and how they do not want to lose me , that they will not find another Robin and such.. He wanted me to sit down with the CFO to talk about staying, Told me I could create my own job there at facility and I would be reimbursed accordingly..
Ok.. so after I left the meeting, my emotions were flowing overtime..
I thought man.. I am of value.. now I am of value.. hmm if I stay here.. I do not have to worry about moving my apartment, I can stay closer to my daughter, if my relationshiop with my gentlemen friend does not work out I will be ok here,, I don't have to leave my church.. I don't have to this, this. this.. get the picture.. I would be "SAFE"..
Ok I bawled cried.. and such.. then I called one of my Pastors and explained the story.. wanting him to tell me what to do.. (now mind you I know he can show me and tell me.. God).. he explained God is not a God of confusion.. go to prayer Robin.. you have been doing that.. he will show you.
I came home.. cancled my college class.. prayed went to sleep and woke up.. to be reminded of some words...
Words from Bondman in regards to another issue in my life:
When we find ourselves in turmoil there can be a number of reasons why. However, an important one for the Believer to consider is this: am I failing to do something He's instructed me to, but which my flesh doesn't want to. Nothing is calculated to put us more into turmoil of soul and spirit than this! Furthermore we'll STAY in the turmoil (and it will inevitably get worse) until we DO what He's said to - no matter how hard, or how much the personal cost.
He is in the business of challenging us with tough decisions. Testing, testing, testing, to see the metal we are made of! Every victory we have in this way brings us closer to Him, and closer to who He is wanting to make us. This is a LONG and exciting journey. But the excitement is always tempered by the fact that it is NOT an easy one!!!
Then I was reminded of scripture:
Matthew 14: 22- 36
Jesus Walks on the Water
22Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, 24but the boat was already a considerable distance[
a] from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.
25During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. "It's a ghost," they said, and cried out in fear.
27But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."
28"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."
29"Come," he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
32And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God." 34When they had crossed over, they landed at Gennesaret. 35And when the men of that place recognized Jesus, they sent word to all the surrounding country. People brought all their sick to him 36and begged him to let the sick just touch the edge of his cloak, and all who touched him were healed.
Go to Part 2.. Test of Faith.
Robin