Yes Via you are right. You might sometimes see it is very lonely seemingly almost being a follower of Christ.
It is good to remind ourselves of the Lord Jesus Christ, and what He went through even alone.
(Was thinking of to myself in the car ride home Via, where else is there to run to, there is drugs or the older lifestyle that was once lived, however those things pass away when we turn our eyes towards God, and Jesus Christ. So where else is there possibly to go to but only Him and his Father.)
Desiring to please everyone will not work, but doing what is right in being kind, and not complaining and murmuring to others about what other people may be doing and this and that will work for God's will is for us to be thankful, and pray for people in Christ Jesus.
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thess. 5:16-18
38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[
b] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:31-39
It is not easy following Christ Jesus, but God does He sure love all people, and us to.
All there is left to hold on to is faith in God for deliverance, hope in God through all circumstances, and Love for God and all His creations.
My thoughts on what being saved means is being saved from the destructive ways of your own self, and being saved into the Kingdom of Heaven and start looking towards God's ways instead of our own ways that we may handle situations, even look at life, even world views.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts Via, it is much appreciated and it is totally understandable by what you mean to be comfortable with who you are in Christ Jesus as his follower, and as a daughter of God.