You say in post #8 "...and I don't want to be ignored" and in post #19 you have a funny way of saying "...I am not lying, but I am not seeking attention." You say, in the OP (opening post) that you have been confused, and troubled by "demons" but when you have people pray for you and read the Bible, it helps. Tulpa are a portal to evil. You can sin in thought only. Then you say, again and again, "Don't worry about me." Which is it?