Morning Rev3,
No offense meant, but I see you haven't answered my question, the reason I have asked it is Christianity, unlike all the other religions, IS NOT a blind faith, knowing how and when you were born again is foundational in building your faith in your walk with the Lord, "the just live by faith," it's a part of the armor Paul is talking about in Eph 6, the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, this truth, this knowledge of how and when is not only a protection from the fiery darts that come into our minds, but using the example Jesus gave us when He was tempted by quoting Scripture, gives us a offensive weapon of quoting back at the devil the Truth of our regeneration, James says "resist the devil and he will flee," we do that with quoting Scriptures the Holy Spirit has given us (the life verses I refereed to earlier).
So don't let the devil scare you if you don't know what verse, if you can't say when you were born again, you wouldn't be here if God wasn't calling you, on the other hand you say you have asked Jesus to forgive you many times, if you are truly born again then asked Father to show you what verse He used and when, I wasn't taught this teaching for several years after I was born again and He was faithful to show me.
Now, your statement about goodness the size of a grain of mustard seed in everyone, that question was put in your mind by the enemy to turn you away from the Truth, he always misquotes Scripture, the verse is talking about "faith" the size of a grain of mustard seed, the enemy has taken Scripture and added Eastern Mysticism to it, it's the ying and the yang that teaches there is a little light in darkness and a little darkness in light, ..."you shall know the Truth and the Truth shall set you free," so don't be amazed that he is using you, we see he used Peter too, so please, let's get back to the subject of you immortal soul, I know there are many here praying for you, ...today is the day of salvation.
Blessings,
Gene