Opalina,
I have a 29 year old son with a mental illness.
He accepted the Lord when he was 8 years old,and rededicated his life about a year ago.
I know the Lord has a 'perfect plan' for him; even though the world sees different...
He never thinks about suicide,but when he doesn't take his meds, he becomes soo confuse as he could be hurt...
It's hard for someone like him to go to the hospital,but he did....
It was the 'best' thing we ever did...
He was diagnose with his disease,and his meds does soo much for him...
Please, please seek professional help...
God does have a plan for your life; just as he has a plan for my son's life.
It's just up to him to seek the Lord's plan.
Everyone is praying for you,and please pray for my son, Jaret...
~Jeani