The Fleece Part 3
Fleece Part 3.
He started crying. I just don’t understand! I asked something of God that was not to hard at all for God to do. All I asked the Lord for was a $ 100.00 check. Guess what people!
The check I gave him that was folded up was for $ 100.00! BUT, the time frame of the fleece had passed. He stood up bawling. He went to get Kleenex. I stood up and got my purse and ready to leave. I took ahold of the door handle. The tears streaming down my face. I cried out to the Lord, oh Lord strengthen me! Give me the strength, give him the strength to go forth into the new year, with a new birth from you!
Ok, that is the short kind of long version. I just had to share it all with you. You see we can do it our way and take forever, months, as in this case , over a year! I came to this forum a year ago seeking help. I pm’d Bondman and Housesitter who both guide me way back then to what God wanted. I refused! I wanted to save this man! What I had to learn was to fully allow God to wrap his arms around me. I had to allow Jesus to save me. By staying in this relationship , I was dying! The past 2 months, I was almost dead. I was spiritually dead! But praises to our Lord, that he saved me.
As I drove down the highway, my steering wheel soaked in tears, I said Ok Lord, I am now following you! God show me how you want to use me to glorify your kingdom.
Lord I have prayed for you to clean me up 100% so I can go forth and lead others to you especially women, young women. I want them to know they do not have to live in unhealthy relationships. I want them to learn that you God , are our Mr. Right. God had to bring me out of this relationship, so I could be free to go forth and minister to others, God’s truth! I could not do that and glorify the Lord as long as I was still where I was!
I was exhausted. I just wanted to go back to my town, go on the Care-A Van and then go home and sleep. But God heard me, because just then I got a text message from the very first young woman that God placed in my life last March. A young woman who was addicted to Coccaine knew the Lord, but could not release the bondage of that and many other sins. Her message said:
It it’s ok, I am going to come visit for the week-end. I need to be with a sister in Christ. I should be there 12-12:30. That was the time frame that I would be arriving home from Care-A Van Ministry! God had other plans for me. I was not to go home
and sleep!
She arrived and has been here all week-end. When she walked in the door, she hugged me. She went in the kitchen , laid down on the floor and gave out a scream. I got down on the floor with her, took her hand and reassured her we are right where God wants us. On our knees, crying out to him, praising him and thanking him! The sun showed through the window on the both of us as we laid there. I said look, God’s light is shining on us and as we continue to seek him he will show us the way!
We went to church last night and again this morning. As the altar call came this morning, I went forth. I got on my knees. My body began to shake, the tears streaming down, soaking my face. I literally cried out and praised God and thanked him for the answering of my prayers, for the answering of the fleece. I finally was able to surrender all to our Lord Jesus! The prayers could not just stop! They kept flying forth. I told God I am his 100%!
I do not know where God will take me in 2009. But whatever he places before me, I will now be obedient and not question him. I will be walking with him. I no longer have to worry about anything! He has me. He is my comforter and healer.
I love you all. If you have read through to the end of this, thank you for taking the time. I know it was long, but you have all been there and never gave up on me and I thank you for that!
I love you all !
Faithwoman
PS. A very important ending note, I very well could have written payment checks for the money owed , as a matter of fact a couple of times, it came to my mind, it is not like me not to do that, but it was truly God that prevented me from writing that check, I believe that with all my heart. He had said it was not about the money, it was that he wanted an answer from the Lord. The Lord answered him, not in the way he wanted it answered but in the way the Lord wanted it answered. It has been said that some of the best prayers are the unanswered ones. Now there is a thought for all of us! hmmmmmm.
Also, they say God knows of everything in the past, the present and the future! God knew when that car blew up, what the final outcome would be. Who would have ever thought that God would use a 2002 Dodge neon with a 115,000 miles on it, in such a way to give honor and Glory to him! Remember the best part, not only did God give me a brand new 2008 Honda Civic , he gave me my life back!
Oh and yes I will say, I will continue to pray for my friend. I learned not to judge him, I learned to give him mercy and grace just like he learned to do with me and we prayed and forgave each other.
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Love, Bonnie
