Bear with me..
The seperation I am going through right now is hard.. it seems I am being seperated by those I love ????.. my daughter, my friend I am dating, friends, my church, everything..
Even amongst the recent blessings, I feel like screaming tonite.. I feel very angry, very confused and very lost. Lord, Jesus Help me! I cry unto you to help me. I know you are there, you never leave me.. I was the one who had left you, I know deep in my heart you are there with me, but it is hard.
I just want the best for those I love, and lately Lord, it seems there is nothing I can do, However I can pray and give it all to you Lord. For you see all of everyone, you know exactly what they need, including me.
Lord, I am sooooooooo tired. physically and mentally, to tired to sleep. It just seems when I put my head on that pillow, my mind starts going spinning.
Lord, I am angry and hurt by those I love. It stinks.. just literally stinks..
Maybe I am to be off by myself with all stripped away from me? that is what you want.. you want us first and foremost.. The stripping I am going through Lord is hard. . Oh Lord, please put people here with me, that will allow me to love them, to be a shining light to them, it is hard to give love and have it fall on deaf eyes, ears and hearts, but of course Lord you see so much of that each and every minute. I am but a rag.. I am a sinner, a sinner who so much wants to do your will, but is hurting in the process of getting there.
There are days that I want so much to give into the flesh, but I have not . .. but the pain hurts, I close my eyes and I see the nails being driven into your son.. the pain he took for all of us so that we may have life.
Oh Lord, come quickly and show me.. show me your will for me. It is with faith that I walk, but I feel like my faith is quivering and shaking right now. It has seemed that all day today , the enemy has been trying to take me down, but you give a way out of tempation.. I am here tonite Lord on the forum.. just typing my hurt, my pain, sharing with those who believe in you, who love you, who have hurts and pains too...
Lord, Jesus, I thank you for all that you are. I thank you for your grace and mercy.. I most of all thank you for loving me and never leaving me.
Love
Faithwoman